Author: Chippeido

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My Beautiful Ending

Now I’m sitting on my desk, working in front of my laptop
Thinking of my future and about the destiny of my life
I’m only a student but I have a big dream to reach
But I’m not always succeed in this mission, my way rocks
There also be sometime we only look to the sky
Found a beautiful rainbow and start wishing for another miracle
Hope looks easily to get but there will always be some pain
“Why I got this life?
Why should I live this life?
Why I don’t have a beautiful life like her? Like him? Like them?
What should I do then, I have sucks life!”
That what we usually think
And these subject bring more and more sorrows on me
So then, 
I started to look at down
Try to found and clean my way from those rocks
Hide my bad mood and just paint a little smile on my face
And that’s it,
I found my Beautiful Ending
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My Passion vs The Guy

I’m here without any other reasons before
I just choose to join this with my brain,
Because seems like this activity suits me well
More than a year passed,
Everything changed
But at first, 
I’m sure that my passion won’t change also
I found a new life
Standing in the front of the school gate every Thursday
Waiting for the welcome of the new person in my life
And that time, 
I’m still the same, innocent..
Day by day passed away
Both me and that new guy, 
Come closer to each others
Joking there, joking here
We laugh everytime the time did right
All changed for the twice
Right now I wonder about my heartbeat
Is it beating because of my passion?
Am I still love doing this thing?
But when I did, but he isn’t there, seems like not usual..
So what’s the usual thing?
When I do this thing together with him
My heart seems won’t beating at all,
My brain stop working,
And my blood seems stop flowing..
Did my passion change also?
The thing that I believe so hard won’t ever changed
Does my heart changed?
It choose the guy better than the things I passion in
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14.07.2014 The Things..

I ever been in such a beautiful day when I was in a good situation with everyone,
Then come the day,
That I should accepted the reality..
Everything changed
Somebody who were very close to me become like a stranger
Both of us feel the awkward moment among the two of us
He don’t talk, neither do I
Then the wind whispered,
All changed because there come something unusual approaching to us
This thing called by, “LOVE”

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Juliettes’ Thought

Am I doing the right thing?
Or actually I just torturing myself with this?
Am I in the right place?
Or actually I just make the same old mistake?
There were a statement that said,
“Don’t judge a book by its cover”
But it is available if I apply it in my daily life?
Just stay in here and wait for the falling star and hope it will answer my wishes
Oh my dearest brightest star
Why can’t I just stop blaming myself of all which Lord has given to me?
Why I’m still thinking if I was such a poor girl?
Why can’t I be more grateful of all I have
Just because I can’t reach a gorgeous love story like others
-WHISPERING-
…
Dear my Juliettes,
Stop looking back
There were so many kind guy in this world who won’t ever judge you by only seeing your appearance
Sure you can’t got a boy like in your dream, 
But you should be grateful of all that you have
Because Lord has written the most gorgeous love story for all Juliettes in this world!
So, keep smiling galz!
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2nd of July 2014, Broken Wings

I might too childish
Think that too many attentions for me were because you have any other reasons
Actually I shouldn’t fly too high
That I surely fallen down
It break my wings
I’m so down and even forget how to fly
Wishing that I can open again the door, that I have closed because of this accident
Afraid of losing for the umpteenth time
Wondered everything in my thought
Tried to erased all gorgeous memories that you and I.. just made..
Just trying..
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26th of June 2014, How Embarrassed..

How embarrassed
You caught my eyes,
As a perpetrator of this thing called “Love”
When they were looking at you
Never in my thought that this day will come like this
The day I fall in love with you
Because my first impression when I met you..
“You are not more than a flat good looking guy”..
<to be continued..>


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The Same Creatures

I don’t know
Even I have never know
You didn’t tell before,
You even didn’t say any words
This is just misunderstanding
But why I always blamed?
It is easy for just to say,
Why won’t you try?
Do you like ‘blaming’ others?
Or instead you just say what do you want to say?
You and I are the same
We are Lord’s creature that called human
Both you and I eat rice
But why there still somebody who blamed by the others?
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The Last 10001 Ways

How if I left all I have built all these time? 
How if I move away and let my destiny goes on? 
How if I won’t try for the umpteenth time because of something that won’t be better? 
All wasted!
For what I tried on?
At the end I got nothing at all
For what I wasted my time?
Just for something that won’t work
Thomas Alfa Edison might said,

“I have not failed. I’ve just found 10000 ways that won’t work.”

But how if I found the last 10001 way?
Should I survive and keep trying for the other 10000 ways?
Or may I leave?
Damn it!
I’ve never being like this before
Everyone know me as an Einstein’s lil daughter
They assume me as a young scientist at the first
But why?
This year all changed!
Is it because of me?
Or because the elder who can’t do their job nicely?
Is it surely because of me, while all my friends got down also?
Dear elder,
How won’t you look at yourself and try to change yours?
Don’t you always ask us to be better, try better, and bullshiter, DAMN!
Just SHUT UP, and LOOK AT YOUR OWN SELF!